Saturday, April 23, 2011

Well how do you like them apples!

Wooot Woooot!  The scales moved, they moved I tell ya!
I have no lost 31.9kg  I am so happy.  I am 87.2kg.  Thats a normal persons weight isn't it?  If someone told me they were 87.2kg I would think they were gorgeous!  So now I am starting to think of myself that way!  I am feeling fantastic.  Even entered myself in a yummy mummy competitions.
http://www.b105.com.au/shows/labratcamillaandstav/galleries/yummy-mummy-2011/1-100?selectedImage=56

Click on the link to vote for me, you can vote 5 times DAILY.  I am entrant #57.

I have been feeling so fantastic, infact, loving myself sick!

But there is always someone who will try to bring you down.  Good Friday I went to pick up our fish & chips we were having for lunch.  Waiting to cross the road and this car flew past and the passenger lent out and screamed so loud out the window "FAT FUCK" (Well that is what I assume he said, imagine a car doing 80 odd kms and you get screamed at.)  I just gave him the bird.  I mean what else can you do?  He's obviously not that intelligent so any big words would have just confused him.
Makes you think, what makes people think they have the right to treat people like that.  I have been reading a friends blog who has had lap band surgery.  She is getting comments like "your huge" and "People should learn to eat properly and exercise then they wouldn't need this kind of surgery".  Seriously, who do you think you are.  Do you even know these people?  You have no idea what is going on in their private lives, what got them to the position they go to to have such drastic surgery.  What about a little bit of encouragement that they are doing something about it.  Oh and don't you love that they post anonymously!  Gutless wonders!  I just remind my friend that they obviously have bigger issues going on in their lives and this is their way of making themselves feel better.

I have said before, I never really noticed any discrimination against me for my size.  Yes I got the odd dickhead make a comment but I never really had the stories I hear others with obesity tell.
I can tell you one thing, I have noticed I am being reated better though.  I used to always be nice to people, they were nice to me.  Now, people are going out of their way to be nice to me.  I have been flirted with by male sales people.  Before they wouldn't even serve me!  I couldn't believe it when it happened.  I got all tongue tied and nervous lol.  Made me feel amazing though!  I mean, everyone likes to know they've "still got it". hehehe!

Well its Easter Sunday.  Our house is bursting at the seams with chocolate.  Yummmm chocolate.  I have had some, my god I feel so sick after the smallest amount.  I would have eaten all my eggs by now hehehe.

Will sign off wishing you all a wonderful and safe easter.  Be kind to others, and ignore those that can't be kind to you.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

No motion in the ocean

The scales aren't being very friendly the last few weeks.  Infact I gained 900grams.  My dietician tells me its not fat, its fluid.  Especially because I have been sick, my body is retaining fluid.  Also its muscle because I have been going to the gym.
So this week I lost 800grams, (of the 900grams I gained).  I have lost 20cm all over in the last month.
I have been feeling very constipated / bloated the last couple of weeks.  I have been "going" but not satisfyingly if that makes sense.  Still feel crappy (pardon the pun) etc.  So a few glasses of Metamucil has got things moving.
I did my first step class at the gym this morning.  It was actually alot of fun.  I wasn't as uncoordinated as I thought I would be.  I wasn't as fast and as bouncy as the others in the class but I still kept up and got the steps right.  The instructor was doing my head in a bit.  She had just got back last night from her trip to Fiji.  So every 5 minutes she kept saying she was on Fiji time.  I am happy for her that she got a trip away and I am sure I would be feeling the same first day back but cheese and whiskers!
Its school holidays.  Going to make it a little harder to get to the gym.  Can't afford to pay for the three of them to go to the creche.  And the gym is going to be shut a fair bit over easter.
I have decided I would like to do the Sydney Harbour Bridge climb.  I saw Magda Szubanksi (sp) did it on A Current Affair.  What an inspiration.  If she can do it, I can do it!  We are the same size.  So depending on funds, I am going to try to do it the weekend I am down in Sydney in June.  I just need to make enquiries.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Keep em crossed

One thing I have noticed I am able to do now.  I am able to cross my legs and sit like a lady.  Not that ankle on the knee like a man cross, a lady like over the knee cross.  I find myself doing it all the time now.  I know varocous veins etc but wow!  It might seem trivial to some but its a big accomplishment.  All these things you can't do when your overweight. 
I am feeling awesome.  I know that sounds conceited.  But I do, I feel beautiful.  Especially when I am done up and have some nice clothes on.  I can't stop taking photos of myself.  I can't stop looking at those photos.
I entered a yummy mummy comp!  I would never have done that 6 months ago.  I do have alot more weight to lose but I am so proud of what I have achieved so far.  I wanted to share that with the world.
The scales haven't moved in 2 weeks.  That is very disheartening.  But I know it will happen.  I have finally gone back to the gym after 2 weeks of kids/me being sick.  Either they are sick so I can't take them to the creche, or I am sick and just don't have the energy.  So been back into it for 2 days. 
I can't believe I am jogging on the treadmill.  I never jog!  I never run!  But I am giving it a go.  I run for a minute then walk for a minute etc.  I do 30 minutes on the treadmill.    I also do 10 minutes on the cross trainer and 10 on a bike.

There are no losers, there are only people who give up

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Never been here before

Wearing size 16 clothing that is! 
I was given a size 16 top by my Mother in Law for Christmas last year.  When she gave it to me we all had a laugh and I told her maybe one day I would fit it.  Well that one day was yesterday! 
I am really struggling to find things to wear, nothing fits properly.  I found my pair of shorts and tried to find a top to match.  This shirt was pretty much the exact same colour and I looked at it and thought, nah no way.  Oh I will just try it on anyway.  OMG!  It fit!  It was snug but it fit!  I couldn't believe it.  I don't ever remember being size 16.  I think as a kid I went from kids clothes straight to 18.  I just am in shock.
My shorts are probably a size 20 now but because of my belly, I could probably get into a 16 or 18 if I didn't have it!
My belly seems to be the last bit to move.  Yes it is getting smaller, but it and my hips are still the biggest part of me.
Went to dinner at a seafood restaurant on the weekend with hubby.  I have been hanging out for a lobster mornay for years since our last favourite seafood restaurant closed down.  So hubby suggested we would go.  I couldn't order a half serve so had to order a full one which I knew there was no way in hell I could eat it all.  Luckily we got an early bird special so it was all half price.  I ate my half.  I was sooo full.  Really really full.  But I just wanted that lobster lol.  Hubby had to finish off the other half as well as his meal.  It was devine.
Finding food is more about filling the hole now rather than the taste.  Now I am happy to have a vegemite sandwich for lunch.  Before I would have been no way, thats not enough.  I want flavour.  But now because I am full up it really makes a difference.


Now just because this is my blog and I can, I am going to ask you all a huge favour.  Please if you have a spare moment, could you vote for my daughter in the B105 Little Lookers competition.  She is finalist #15.  This is to win $2000.  I have plans on what I want to do with the money if she wins but can't say anything incase she doesn't win.  Don't want to get someones hopes up!

http://www.b105.com.au/win/little-lookers/2011/finalists?selectedImage=14

Thank you in advance xxx