I'm so deleriously happy!

This is my OMG is that really me photo.  But not in the way you would expect.  I can't belive I am that small. 
YOu know when you read or hear stories of people who see a photo of themselves when they are really big and that is when they make the decision to do something about their weight.   I had the same reaction when I saw this photo but in a positive way.  I had to ask my mum if it was really me.  I just can't believe how much weight I have lost.
I am so happy with the way I look.  I know I still have a lot of weight to lose (at least 15kg) but I am just happy now!  I am buying clothes off the rack, I can shop in an op shop!  (which I will say, I have to do as its costing so much in new clothes!).  I can't describe how excited I was to shop in an opshop for the first time.  I got 3 pairs of shorts for $4-$6 each!

I went to Dreamworld on the weekend.  I went on rides I had never been on before. Because I was too big before.  I had the best day!  It was so much fun!  I even went on the swing chairs!!  Never before would I have gone on, I would have been too scared the chains wouldn't be strong enough to hold me.

Oh and I met Brian McFadden there too lol!  I was so excited, I was shaking and my heart was racing!  I am surprised I didn't pee my pants lol.

He was so lovely.  He was happy to stop and smile for a photo.  What a great guy!

Dietician very happy.

Had a dietician appointment this week.  The appointments get fewer as time goes on.  Especially now that I am showing that I am doing so well.
My Dietician asked me if I was going to a photo shoot later in the day.  I had made an effort to dress up that morning.  Nice new skinny jeans and stiletto boots.  And of course my gorgeous leather jacket that I want to sleep in!
I felt great!  To hear this professional also tell me she is very happy with my progress and she is going to write to my surgeon to tell him how well I am doing, just makes me feel great.
My dietician was very happy to hear that I have learnt what I can and can't eat.  I have learnt that carbs will fill me quicker, if I eat the carbs, I won't get the protein that I need.  So now I really make concious decision when choosing what I eat.  For example, Sushi, I pick the ones with the least amount of rice, or even, just don't eat the rice.  Pizza, I eat the topping etc.  I really love my meat and the dietician said that is great as that is what is helping the rapid weight loss.
Don't get me wrong, I am still having naughty things, but compared to the amount I used to have its ok.  I still have the odd drink of coke, here and there.  I have really become addicted to Caramel Latte's.  I don't "drink" alot through the day.  I have to choose, eat or drink lol.  So depending on the day and how I am feeling.
I am getting compliments left right and centre!  Its very flattering!  I am really not used to it.
Wasn't recognised at our monthly Make-A-Wish meeting this week!  I hadn't been for 2 months.  So yes there was probably a bit of a difference lol.  It was quite funny.  Seeing someone say hello to you that you have known for 13 years but they look at you like they have met you for the first time.
I really can't wait to get my hair back to my Natural colour.  At the moment I feel like a Bogan, huge regrowth showing lol.  I liked being blonde but I just don't like how the regrowth shows so much on me.  So hopefully back to being a Brunette soon.

'In the end.... what we regret most are the chances we never took"

Why do I let people bring me down?

I had a melt down moment.  I'm not proud of it.  Someone who means nothing to me made me feel worthless.  Why did I let him do it?
We were out to dinner and I was feeling absolutely fantastic about myself.  A friend of a friend who I had only met for the first time made a joke that he "DISLIKED" the compatability score between he and I.  (Stupid game we used to play as kids where you put your name Loves insert name here.  Then you cross out how many L's, O's, V's, E's S's etc.  Which gives you a percentage.  (some of you may be too young to know what I am talking about lol).  Well my name was included with his and he made a big song and dance that he disliked it.  It really pissed me off at first.  Who the fuck are you!  As if I have any interest in you anyway.
But then in the car home I really got upset.  Now thinking about it, I think the past week was just brought to a head thanks to that.  I had had a hell of a week with sleeping and my kids being sick.  One child had been diagnosed with suspected Whooping Cough.  So you can imagine how much stress I had been under. Then the doctors picked up an irregular heartbeat in her.  Well it was the week from hell.  I was so extremely tired and emotional that I cried for hours.  I actually didn't get any sleep at all.
It really made me angry that I let a stupid little game upset me so much.  But I really hope it got to me so much because I was so emotionally on edge anyway.
Or is it because I feel I want everyone to like me?  I've always thought I don't give a shit what people especially those I will never see again, think of me.  This is why I think it was just the emotions catching up with me.

Hahah had a blonde moment also this week (again I blame tiredness & my bad hair colour lol).  I for some reason thought I had to be 81.9kg to have lost 40kg.  I was 82.3kg on Thursday and thought I was soooo close.  Friday morning I weigh myself, I am 80.9kg.  OMG!  I did it I scream.  I've lost 40kg!  Just to make sure I get the calculator out.  What the hell was I thinking!?  Should have stayed at school that extra year longer I think lol.  I have no idea how I came up with the result that I would be 40kg lighter if I got to 81.9kg.  I just don't know lol!  turns out, I have 1.8kg to go.  Thanks to the trusty calculator.   So its close!

Finally now that everyone in the house is well again (touch wood) and school goes back this week, I may be able to get some exercise in again.  I haven't been to the gym for a month!  I am surprisingly missing it too.  Will edge back in slowly.

I have to share something I find very inspirational with you.  My friend Stephanie was on Today Tonight on friday night.  Stephanie has suffered terribly with insults from ignorant people because of her size.  I have been fortunate enough to not suffer anywhere near as many taunts as she has.
She told her story to Today Tonight and I am so proud of her for standing up and being counted.  I don't know what gives people the right to think they can degrade people they way they do.  When it all comes down to it, fat, thin, black, white, tall, short, we are all human.  We should respect each other no matter what. 
Steph has set herself a challenge to walk 46 flights of stairs at the building she works at.  I would love it if you could please sponsor her and help her raise money for the Cancer Council.
Check out Steph's blog: http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.movingforwardlookingforward.blogspot.com%2F&h=kAQDl-_p2

Cancer Council Link: http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fvic.cancercouncilfundraising.org.au%2FpersonalPage.aspx%3FregistrationID%3D342014%26langPref%3Den-CA&h=UAQDnk6Ts

Today Tonight Link: http://au.todaytonight.yahoo.com/article/9811238/none/obesity-humiliation

You will not believe the comments she has received from some people on her blog.  You will be gobsmacked!