Ive had a think and worked out a goal weight I would like to reach. I think my "BMI weight" is supposed to be 55-60kg. There is no way in hell I could be that weight. There would be nothing of me. That weight is just not in my nature.
So I've decided, I'd love to get to 69kg. That's only 3-4kg away (depending on the time of day/month).
I've found I've been stuck at 72kg for a few months now. It's driving me insane. I've obviously hit a plateau but fees it's frustrating.
So if I could get to 69kg that would make my total weight loss be at 50kg.
Even thinking of being 69kg makes me think that's too small. But I know I can achieve that.
I don't have a time frame. It's just a goal to reach whenever I reach it.
I've gotten back into the gym. Two days in a row. I tried KIMAX class yesterday at the gym. I freakin loved it. Infact I couldn't stop thinking about it all night. I can't wait to do the class again.
I'm sore today from it, but went to the gum again and did RPM. I'm totally spent right now. I'm laying on the lounge and I just can't move. I think if I closed my eyes I would sleep for a week.
I was actually very surprised at my stamina through the KIMAX class. I feel I have some kind of fight in me.
I've been really trying to watch what I eat. But I completely crashed and burned after dinner. I'd been so perfectly good all day. But I just caved. I ate 2 packets (mini packs) of twisties and 4 squares of chocolate! I'm such a pig!
I ate good snacks all through the day, fruit, yoghurt, I had my protein lunch etc. I wasn't even hungry. I just had an urge! What is wrong with me!?
Monday, January 30, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Back on the Horse
Argh, the last few months I have really been slack. My eating, my exercise, has been horrid.
Well I should'nt really say that. When I look at my food diary, my eating hasn't been THAT bad. But my exercise has sucked. I just haven't had the time. With school holiday's I spent so much time keeping the kids entertained that I just never had time for me.
So today I got back into it. Straight back to the gym and threw myself in the deep end. Did and RPM class. Your supposed to burn 600 - 800 Calories per class. I actually felt pretty good, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. It still hurt but I hadn't lost much of my momentum during my break. My bum will be sore tomorrow I am sure. I was worried about feeling ill afterwards but I actually felt ok.
I started the day with a Protein shake this morning, OMG. My stomach does not tolerate it at all. I have been paying for it all day. I have been too scared to leave the house. It just seems to go straight through me. But I need the protein so I have to keep it up. Hopefully my tummy will get used to it.
I have been asked if I had thought I took the "easy way out" with having Surgery. Well if you can say having major stomach surgery the easy way out, having 2/3rds of your stomach removed the easy way out, then yes. I don't see it that way. I have worked bloody hard also. Even if it is the easy way out, I did something about it. I could still be sitting on my arse, eating myself into an early grave. I could be out there starving myself and slogging it out at the gym where it would only lead me to temptation again. I did something about it. No matter which way I did it, the proof is in my pictures. I did what was best for me.
To be honest, I don't care if people think I did take the easy way out, I feel awesome. Plus like I said, I tried the "conventional" way over and over and I failed. How long could I go on fighting that losing battle?
Started watching The Biggest Loser that started on tv again last night. God it makes me sick the way they show the contestants and their eating. I never ate that way and I don't know any overweight person who does. We aren't all pigs stuffing our faces into troughs!
Also what shits me, this season is focusing on the contestants being too big to find love. Making out no one big can find anyone to love them. Its complete bullshit. I found love with one of the most amazing men and I was huge. I was even bigger throughout out relationship, now he gets me at my best. But to say overweight people can't find love its a croc of shit. That just means people are taking your looks over your personality, and if that's the case, then those people aren't worth having a relationship with anyway!
Well I should'nt really say that. When I look at my food diary, my eating hasn't been THAT bad. But my exercise has sucked. I just haven't had the time. With school holiday's I spent so much time keeping the kids entertained that I just never had time for me.
So today I got back into it. Straight back to the gym and threw myself in the deep end. Did and RPM class. Your supposed to burn 600 - 800 Calories per class. I actually felt pretty good, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. It still hurt but I hadn't lost much of my momentum during my break. My bum will be sore tomorrow I am sure. I was worried about feeling ill afterwards but I actually felt ok.
I started the day with a Protein shake this morning, OMG. My stomach does not tolerate it at all. I have been paying for it all day. I have been too scared to leave the house. It just seems to go straight through me. But I need the protein so I have to keep it up. Hopefully my tummy will get used to it.
I have been asked if I had thought I took the "easy way out" with having Surgery. Well if you can say having major stomach surgery the easy way out, having 2/3rds of your stomach removed the easy way out, then yes. I don't see it that way. I have worked bloody hard also. Even if it is the easy way out, I did something about it. I could still be sitting on my arse, eating myself into an early grave. I could be out there starving myself and slogging it out at the gym where it would only lead me to temptation again. I did something about it. No matter which way I did it, the proof is in my pictures. I did what was best for me.
To be honest, I don't care if people think I did take the easy way out, I feel awesome. Plus like I said, I tried the "conventional" way over and over and I failed. How long could I go on fighting that losing battle?
Started watching The Biggest Loser that started on tv again last night. God it makes me sick the way they show the contestants and their eating. I never ate that way and I don't know any overweight person who does. We aren't all pigs stuffing our faces into troughs!
Also what shits me, this season is focusing on the contestants being too big to find love. Making out no one big can find anyone to love them. Its complete bullshit. I found love with one of the most amazing men and I was huge. I was even bigger throughout out relationship, now he gets me at my best. But to say overweight people can't find love its a croc of shit. That just means people are taking your looks over your personality, and if that's the case, then those people aren't worth having a relationship with anyway!
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Happy New Year! Can you believe it's 2012!
NEW YEARS 2011
NEW YEARS 2012
NEW YEARS 2012
I wanted to start with photos as the saying, a picture speaks a thousand words is so true. I mean look at me! I'm a completely different person!
What an amazing year 2011 was. I honestly didn't want it to end. I had the best year of my life. Not only with my weight but life in General. A fabulous family, great friends, so much support from everyone. I also had a great year winning prizes. I love to enter competitions, its my hobby. I did very well in 2011. I won almost $7000 in prizes! I really hope it continues in 2012.
What an amazing year 2011 was. I honestly didn't want it to end. I had the best year of my life. Not only with my weight but life in General. A fabulous family, great friends, so much support from everyone. I also had a great year winning prizes. I love to enter competitions, its my hobby. I did very well in 2011. I won almost $7000 in prizes! I really hope it continues in 2012.
Gosh, what a year it was. I learnt so much about myself, so much about my confidence, my true value. I learnt so much about relationships. I learnt people can be very jealous. Yes of me! I have learnt some people can never be happy for you no matter what is going on.
Back to my weight loss.
I have noticed I can eat a little more lately. I notice my meals are getting bigger. Not as big as they used to be of course but now where maybe I could eat half a sandwich, I can now finish the whole sandwich. This scares me a little. I don't want to ever get back to where I was so I have been really watching the decisions I make with my eating. Yes I can only eat small meals but I need to make sure those meals are valuable. I need to make sure i get the most out of each of those meals.
Starting New Years day, I decided to cut out the 1 can of coke a day habit. LOL. Hey this is good compared to what it was, I used to drink Litres a day! But even the one can can't be good for me so I have made the conscious decision to lay off. Today 7 days in, I caved, I had about 100ml of coke, shared a can with my husband. Mind you, I saved it til after my dinner so couldn't even finish that 100ml. SO not entirely sinful lol.
I bought a new top the other day. I found one I liked but it only had a size 14 or a size 10. As I have been in 14 for a while, I knew I had to go smaller. As there was no 12 I just thought I would try the 10. HOLY FREAKIN BAT SHIT! it fit! I just can't believe it. Size 10. Me, formallly size 26 now in a size 10! Wow! Friends of mine who I look at as skinny minnies are telling me that is smaller than what they wear. That can't be right, I am not smaller than them!
My mum posted a photo of me yesterday in my swimmers. I said it wasn't me, it looks nothing like me (the image I remember as a size 26).
THIS CAN NOT BE ME!
Anyway, welcome to the New Year! I hope 2012 has the best install for you all. Thank you for your support in 2011. It has been absolutely amazing for me.
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