I'm an Inspiration

I can't believe it.  I never thought, me, Tracey, would ever be called or feel like an inspiration. 
I have had lots of people telling me lately but today it hit me and I believe it.
Since I have been losing weight I have had lots of people ask me about my surgery etc.  Nothing is off limits with me, I am happy to talk about everything infact, you won't get me stopped after I start!
I have had people who have had lap band surgery tell me they wish they had of had what I had done.  Some of them have had their friends speak to me about Gastric Sleeve Surgery rather than lap band. 
The last few weeks I have had a number of people really question me abou the surgery.  They have now booked in themselves!  I can't believe it, I can't believe that I am something people would want to aspire to be like.  Have the success I have had.  I feels amazing and I am just feeling so proud of myself.

I wish all of those people all of the best with their surgeries.  I have told them follow your surgeons and dieticians orders to the letter.  That is the only way things will work. 

I went to my first dress up party on the weekend.  WOW!  It felt so good to be able to get involved rather than throw a Sombrero on my head!  I felt amazing (a little over exposed with the amount of flesh I had showing lol).  I also can't believe the photos that it is me.  I am super impressed with my jaw line!  I have a chin!  Yes a chin, one single chin!!!  God I wish I had of done this years ago!

Check out the Jaw line!  No, not the chest, the jaw line! lol



I feel amazing, I can't believe my own transformation.  Not just my size but my outlook on life, my outlook on myself, my confidence and the belief in myself.  Finallly I feel worthy of my own love.



I was knocked out for a week!

I had my very first session with a Personal Trainer on Monday.  (For those of you following, today is now Friday, yes its taken me that long to be able to post!).
It knocked me out for a week.
It really hurt during the session.  But I just thought well that is what it is supposed to do!  I pushed myself as much as the PT pushed me.  I didn't want to look like a sissy!  My PT is my RPM trainer so she know's what kind of stamina I have (Its all just for show really!),  So she knew how far to push me.
And boy did she push me!  I was screaming and moaning like a girl towards the end.  At one stage I rested my legs for a split second.  My PT said "Do that again and we will start the set again"  OMG!  I had tears s treaming down my face, I was grunting and groaning.  And that was just taking a sip of water!
At one point my PT told me she has had people throw dumbells at her before during a session because they didn't like how hard she was pushing them.  I told her I didn't know how they would have the energy to do it.  I didn't even have the energy to flip her the bird!
So session over, it took me 20 minutes just to get off the floor. My PT had moved on to torture some other poor soul.  I had to get my 2 youngest girls out of the creche.  Somehow I then also had to drive them home.  I was on the verge of vomiting and I felt very dizzy.  I know I couldn't have vomited if I wanted to,  My stomach muscles had gone on strike anyway.  Either that or they had imploded!
So I drove home very weak and feeling very ill.  Got home got the girls sorted with morning tea and then put one of them to bed.
I then spent the rest of the day on the lounge.  I tried to drink a protein shake I had made up but I just couldn't stomach it!  As the day went on everything started to hurt, even my eyelashes.  I was still feeling weak.  Everyone kept telling me to have some sugar.  I went to get a lolly out of the lollly jar, but its on the top shelf of the cupboard to stop the kids getting into them.  I couldn't bloody reach them!  I couldn't lift my arms!  The rest of the day was a wipe out.  All I wanted to do was sleep .
Tuesday morning, HOLY MOTHER MARY & JOSEPH!  I couldn't move!  I screamed trying to get out of bed!  I had to get the youngest out of her cot, of all days, she chose today to jump out!  I screamed as I knew it was going to hurt trying to catch her and always at the thought that I was in too much pain to catch her.
I spent the rest of the day in absollute agony, I text my PT and asked her to come and brush my teeth as I couldn't even do that. She said "Welcome to the world of PT" lol. 
I had to take my oldest to school, that was intersting, trying to get in and out of the car,  I also threw in a quick trip to the shops.  BIG MISTAKE! BIG! HUGE!  The youngest decided to take off in the carpark.  Imagine if you will, me, muscles as sore as anything, trying to run, I looked like an ungraceful galloping horse.  I was screaming, she was laughing!  (note to self:  Kill her when I get my strength back and my teeth stop hurting).  My PT text's again to see how I am feeling.  I tell her I still hate her.  She says "I can live with that".  Yeah, you'll keep!
Thank god it was takeaway Tuesday! 
Wednesday morning, so much more relief!  Still sore but at least I can move without crying.  Everyone still laughing at me.  I get some grocery shopping done and some running around, but I'm back home again to take it easy.
I couldn't bring myself to go to the gym again yet.  I don't know if I can see my PT without bursting into tears or having my muscles run off in the other direction!

We went to the Gold Coast Bulletin Famous Party and Sea FM's no secrets Party last week.  Wow, what a fantastic weekend.  Hubby and I just had so much fun, so many drinks and not enough sleep!
We both scrubbed up alright too if I do say so myself!  It was so nice to be able to dress up glamorous.  I haven't done it in a very long time.  Infact I haven't done it with a body like this before!



We met lots of celebrities.  My favourite being Scott Prince , William Zillman and Kevin Gordon from the Gold Coast Titans.  But the best part of the night was the Photobooth.  What a brilliant idea.  I even took Scotty Prince in there with me! lol



Bring on the Sea Fm No Secrets party.  Another top night, lots of drinks, lots of fun.  And again, lots of glamour!

ME AND CHARLI ROBINSON (Formerly of HI 5)

Well best be off.  Seeing I have been out for the count all week, my house looks like a tip.  I also have to pack for another weekend away.  We are getting out trashy on this weekend.  Heading to a friends 80's themed 40th birthday party.  So excited. 

Oh, before I go, there is also something you should know (wow I am a poet and didn't know it!)  Scroll down for a BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!

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ALMOST THERE

40 KILOGRAMS GONE!!!

Thats right, I have lost 40kg thanks to this amazing surgery.

I now weigh 79kg.

Anything now is just a huge bonus.

Not much to report because I just feel awesome!

I haven't really updated much, nothing else to tell really except how good I feel!  If I came and posted here every day how awesome I feel then you would all get sick of it. (If you aren't already lol).

Met with some family over the weekend who haven't seen me in a while.  All they could do was stare at me and say "OMG Trace!"  They were very impressed.  Some didn't even recognise me lol.

I noticed I haven't had a drink for a while (alcoholic), I do like to have a drink here and there (no not get raving drunk but a drunk to wind down lol) I jsut haven't had one as if I drink I can't eat!  I know I gain more from the food so I save the room for that.

Still having cravings of course, really into Le Snack cheese & biscuits at the moment.  I know its the cheese I want but gotta have a cracker for it to go on.  Of course, can't completely give up the chocolate.  Also I am really into fish & chips. 
I always get comments from people "you shouldn't be eating that".  Well no, noone should.  But the fact is, I can, its the amount I eat that makes the difference.  Before for example, I would have fish, chips, calamari rings, seafood stick, prawn cutlets and maybe a potato scallop or 2 if I was still hungry!  Now I can have a couple of Calamari rings and some chips or a small piece of fish and some chips. 
Same as if I do some baking, people say " you shouldn't be eating that" well , I do have 4 other people in my house that I cook for also, its not all just for me.

I am on the hunt for a few outfits, going to a Glamorous party on Thursday night, so need to find a nice cocktail dress, then I am going to an 80's party next week so need to find something trashy!  Hehehe I am so excited.  NOrmally if I was invited to go to a Fancy Dress party I would throw a sombrero on my head,  Cause that is the only thing that would fit.  I am excited to be able to be one of the crowd now.